Years ago I fell in love with a boy. He was wonderful, and everything was so great. At least I thought it was. But then one day, to my shock, he broke up with me.
“How could you think there is something between us?” he said coldly. “There was nothing.”
I was mortified. A lie started to form in my heart: You are so ugly, no one will ever fall in love with you! I decided to close my heart, to protect myself from being hurt again.
Discovering True Worth
After several years, the lie that I was ugly and unlovable had become overpowering. At that time I had a vivid dream. In my dream, God put a glittering crown full of precious jewels on my head. He said, “Miriam, even if no man will ever realize that you are beautiful – YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! You are beautiful BECAUSE I MADE YOU. No man in the whole world can give you this crown. Only I can crown you with beauty!”
In that moment I understood. I had wanted this boy to tell me I’m beautiful and give me a crown. I was looking to him for my value and identity. But he had no crown at all! Only God has the crown! Only God can define my true worth. The truth of who God says I am became bigger than the lie and went right into my heart. “YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, BECAUSE I MADE YOU.”
Isaiah 62:3 (NKJV) “You shall be a crown of beauty in the hand of the LORD, and a royal diadem in the hand of your God.”